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2 5 bought at the book fair mibf2015 view spoiler Okay Maybe I am rating this one so low but I guess It just didn t hit me that hard.I ve read loads of stuff like this, tackling bullying and suicidal tendencies of youngsters, and there are a few which really stood out unfortunately, this one didn t.I just found it cliched, for one, because the narration of Daelyn s story and experiences sounded as if she s looking at the situation shallowly and as if she isn t problematic at all It wasn t really clarified if she attempted to kill herself because of her past problems or if she has new ones.Yes, she talks about her obesity issues and the tragic fate she had at fat camp But look, she even gets skinny at the end, to the point that Santana hits on her See The problem of this book is having poor character development and being quite heavy on dialogues Daelyn became a poor character with low self esteem She seemed weak and dumb enough to follow tips from the internet on how to end her life I just don t get why people nowadays dwell on popularity and stuff online, as if that s gonna last and make you a star what like Paris Hilton or Kim Kardashian Go ahead and post some nudes I kind of felt bad because it should ve tackled a lot of teenage issues and could ve helped teenagers going through a rough time being teenagers.All this time I felt like I was there listening to how problematic Daelyn s life is in my head and she just can t think of any other ways to relieve herself of her problems aside from ending her life Maybe if she tried to look at other aspects of her life, she could ve succeeded and got over her issues with herself and her parents.And there goes the other problem The character of her parents in this book AAAAAHI CAN GO ON ALL DAY POINTING OUT WHAT LET ME DOWN IN THIS BOOK SRSLY hide spoiler This book ticked me off than any I ve read since My Sister s Keeper Just like Picoult s book, this novel slapped me in the face at the end and negated whatever positive experience I might have gained from it.By the Time You Read This could have been a good book It was fast moving and compulsively readable Then I got to the end and literally said out loud, What the hell Without giving too much away, I ll say this Cliffhangers can be effective literary devices when done well Mentally dropping the reader off the cliff, however, just frustrates It makes me feel like the author or editor or publisher is just too lazy or too uncommitted to write a resolution Don t get me invested in characters and then not even tell me what bloody happens.In terms of subject matter, it would be virtually impossible not to compare this novel to Jay Asher s 13 Reasons Why Both discuss an important issue in today s youth in a creative way Asher blows Peters out of the park by being much realistic and also giving the reader a satisfying if somewhat sad denouement And while I could relate to Daelyn in some ways than Asher s Heather, I felt 13 Reasons Why better demonstrated the complexity of emotions in a suicidal person Bottom line this book is not worth your time unless you want to throw it across the room when you re done which was unfortunately not an option for me since I read it on my Kindle. Teen suicide Not an easy subject to think or talk about This book tells the story of Daelyn She s 15 and determined to die this time Yes, you read correctlyshe s tried to kill herself before and failed This time she knows it will work A victim of bullies, she can t face life any She thinks everyone will be happier without her One day after school she meets Santana and things start to look a little different, but is it too late As a mother of a child who was bullied and talked about suicide because of it, this book was very difficult for me to read It really struck a nerve with me because it is such an accurate account of what really goes on in our kids mind I recommend this book to anyone with a child. I think that some of the reviews on here are a little biased, seeing as some of you reading this book don t understand that type of pain Daelyn was in before she offed herself I read this book a while ago when I was still in high school, and it was so beautifully painful for me I was the new girl who underwent bullying along with personal tragedies my sopho year I ended up in an institution for having suicidal tendencies and characteristics And yes, at one point, I planned out my death I remember being in so much pain, but only inside Daelyn was being torn to shreds by the pain, and she was willing to go to any lengths to stop it Suicide is not a way to stop life, but to stop pain There is no lack of character depth with Daelyn She s exactly what she is A girl in agonizing pain There is nothing to that She doesn t do anything besides read and sit at her computer, because there is nothing else she is capable of doing with that state of mind I love the way she was portrayed It is truly like that When you re bullied and broken, you don t let people close, not even for a moment Yes, there is always doubt in your mind, even when people follow through with suicide, they were doubting it at one point For people to say that the author did not give her much of a personality, or did not make her as complex as she should have been, you don t understand her, then There is so much to her than just what the author lets on This book is obviously targeted to a specific group of readers, so for someone to say that Daelyn wasn t right on or the perfect portrayal of pain, then they obviously haven t been in that same place Personally, I enjoyed it Except for the blatant lack of needed attention that her parents showed her I know that makes things a thousand times worse Overall, it was a pretty accurate book in the category of suffering. Daelyn has been demeaned, bullied, tortured and almost raped through her years in school For some reason, the teachers and principals always believe the other students, making her feel further bullied Daelyn was overweight most of her life and that was the main fodder for the bullies, but not all She tried to make her parents listen, but they just passed it off as kids being kids Her mom went on diets with her saying it would be fun and her father would sneak food to her at night She was sent to fat camp where they were tortured with emotional abuse and physical exercise beyond their limits She final went home when a boy died But that was before She has made a few attempts to take her life and failed The last attempt, pouring bleach and ammonia down her throat only resulted in a burned stomach lining and collapsed esophagus She has to wear a heavy neck brace, can t talk, and all her food has to be pureed She doesn t realize that she s become a frail, skinny, looking girl And that she s pretty.Daelyn flies under the radar It s what keeps her safe and how she plans to slip from this world without anyone knowing her plans Her father monitors her computer so she can t get on suicide websites But she finds one that he can t trace and there she begins her countdown Twenty four days But a boy begins sitting on the bench with her while she waits for her parents to get her from school and he worms himself into her life without her permission Next thing she knows she s staying at his house because she can t be trusted to stay at home alone and her parents both have meetings when there s a half day of school Despite the fact that Daelyn can t talk, Santana talks a lot asking lots of questions She writes some answers down Others she ignores Then she finds out something about Santana that seems to make her think She doesn t stop her countdown, but one day in chorus she did it as a joke a mean girl elbows her and a teacher moves her to a different section In a way, he sticks up for her And she ends up standing by the overweight girl And she s nice to the girl and the girl starts chatting to her and sits with her in another class Daelyn even writes a joke about the mean girl to the overweight girl and they laugh in chorus But she s not supposed to be making friends She s supposed to be letting go of everything.Daelyn is not a pitiful character The neck thing gets to me, but that s a personal thing She s strong in her decision to end her life She isn t blaming anyone She blames herself She doesn t believe in God because he was never there for her before And she really thinks her parents will be better off without her She doesn t take her medicine that was seeming to work She really is strongly convinced that suicide is the answer The website is not one that talks you into doing it It ask questions that make you think about your choices It makes you wait those twenty four days It asks if you ve thought of this and that Have you decided how, where Have you decided who will find you etc But asks deeper questions like who will become you after you re gone Daelyn keys in no one, but can t help but think of the overweight girl in chorus Tougher questions come.The author does a great job of portraying a girl in the depths of depression There is no feeling An absolute absence of any emotion Inside is dead That s how Daelyn is for most of the book until Santana starts to stir feelings in her She s a sympathetic character She doesn t whine about her life Maybe because she can t feel She just lays it out in flashbacks in black and white She doesn t even seem to hate the people that were so cruel to her She can t feel even that emotion But Santana is hard to ignore He s loud with bleached blond hair and colored tips and he seems to appear out of nowhere And like I said, he talks a lot.I can t say I enjoyed this book because I don t enjoy reading about suicide But this was a very well written book on bullying, its effects on the victims and suicide It addressed a very tough subject with integrity People that attempt suicide aren t doing it for attention They re doing it to say, Hey, I NEED HELP They should be treated with respect and kindness and understanding Not like a freak, a criminal, or a burden They should get help because the next time probably won t be an attempt.Now there is no clear ending to the novel The author lets you decide for yourself what you think Daelyn did on the last day I know what she did and I have my proof to back it up But some others might see it differently But be it bullying or suicide this novel is a great lesson on both. While I m glad that books like this one are out there to encourage teens to seek help and find reasons to go on rather that committing suicide, I m still not a huge fan of suicide self harm stories, especially when they try so hard to be dark that it just comes across as overdramatic I found myself liking Santana as a character much than Daelyn, who spends most of her time hanging around on a bizarre pro suicide website why do such things exist Why don t the police try to get a handle on them the way they started doing with the pro anorexia websites and instead of coming across as an easy character to sympathize with, she came across as one of those emo kids from my old high school who obsessed over all this stuff Make no mistake, the subject matter itself is nothing to trivialize Daelyn was bullied for being overweight as a kid and it s something lots of other kids in the real world face every day I remember when I was in elementary school, the two overweight students in my class were routinely taunted with the chanted nicknames fatty fatty boombalatty and oinker and harassed in phys ed class Such jokes have never been funny and I m glad this book addresses the harm that bullying can do That said, I didn t like the way Daelyn initially treated Santana or her parents, and it was difficult to really connect with her as a character simply because she hardly seemed like a real person Instead of showing readers what it s like to be a suicidal teen, there s a lot of preachy first person monologues that tell you what Daelyn s life has been like but don t really get you to feel anything for her Much like Thirteen Reasons Why s main character, Daelyn is one of those characters who you want to feel sorry for but can t help thinking that they re being a bit selfish I don t mean selfish in that Daelyn should have endured the bullying or tried harder to be happy, but selfish in that she apparently knew all too well what it feels like to be alone, and yet still she treats Santana badly, whether it be ignoring him outright or wanting him to just go away, never even considering the fact that his life has actually been worse than hers and he s only trying to help I think it would have been easier to relate to her as a character if she wasn t so depressing that she was treating other people rudely What s that saying, misery loves company This book was hard, but at the same time it was so enthralling Reading so openly about bullying and a parasuicidal kid made my stomach into a knot, but I couldn t keep my eyes off the book until I was finished with it It is short, but at the same time, it feels so long Not because it s boring, but because the topics it talked about felt so important, maybe I m not sure what s the right word for it I m not sure there s a right word for it.If you enjoyed Willow , by Julia Hoban, this is definitely a book for you, even though the books by themselves have little in common In these pages you will read about the hopeless desperation of a girl, the angish in her parents, and about a hesitating, sweet and sad love story Until you reach the ending Which I had to read at least three times to make sure I had completely understood it Or did I Check out my video review here BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I LL BE DEAD tore my insides raw As I read, I screamed I cried I threw the book across the room I apologized and cradled it delicately in my hands I also chuckled and fell in love with the characters, flawed as they all are Julie Anne Peters is nearly unmatched when it comes to writing about difficult, taboo, controversial, and absolutely necessary subjects, and her latest book is a terrifying masterpiece that deserves to find its way into everyone s hands.Daelyn is not an easily likable protagonist I hope to God that very few of us out there can actually understand where she is coming from, a dark and frightening world so terrorized, so beaten, so loveless that, for her, suicide is a form of salvation And yet, as she slowly reveals to us her bullied past, we invariably find ourselves at once within her, shocked into silence at what we experience being her, and at her side, emotionally invested in attempting to give her hope It s a powerful duality of readers position that only the most skilled of novelists can achieve.And indeed, Julie Anne Peters incredible writing skills are brilliantly showcased in this book Daelyn s voice is cynical and snarky without being overwhelmingly pity inducing Peters prose is short, to the point, and lyrically sweet Sometimes succinctness is the greatest form of power.I can t end this review without pointing out how absolutely lovely Santana is but I ll let you find that out for yourself Needless to say, I wish I could place a copy of this book into the hands of everyone between the ages of 12 and 18 Perhaps if everyone were allowed this candid look into Daelyn s hurt, bullying and suicide bullycide would be hopefully less of a terrifyingly real problem. 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